It's been a hectic weekend for me. Finally, it's over. Things happened during the weekend. First, I LOST MY PENCIL CASE!!! Next, MY EVENT IS FINALLY OVER!!! N' yes......I've been thinking of "her" whenever I've less things to do
no mood to blog recently...so ya...bloggie bloggie...pls await my energetic n' lifely return...2 weeks later...
till then...signin' off...
I'm thinking of u......u know hu u r......
the ball bounced @ 8/30/2005 09:33:00 PM
Saturday, August 27, 2005
It pays to have more contacts, accumulate more networks, n' know more friends. I have felt very fulfillled and satisfied for the past few days. Yesterday was a foosball showdown with Sahf n' ESC vp. Hahahh...got thrashed all the way. Nope, I wasn't bullied, juz tt luck wasn't on my side. :) Today went to DSC AGM. Retro theme. Their committee members were dressed as close to retro as possible. But, Neo is one big poser. He wear like 70's ah beng, with high-cut leather shoes, tight- buttock squeezin pants, n' a white top. Den he jokingly told me, walk oso mush hav the "sei", even when u'r looking at people, the eye oso muz hav the "sei". Lols, it was so damn interesting as I went up with him n' angel to the lounge to get changed before the AGM. After the DSC AGM, the chairs were cleared, and after refreshments, we went back into the Design Space, which has now been converted into a temporary dance floor. Following, many many retro songs were played...n' we danced, grooved, n' salsa'ed to the rythm n' music. After much dancin n' shaking our butts, we decided to call it a night. That was when the caterer came to keep all the trays n' tumblers, so all the fruit punch+ribeena was dispensed off the tumblers. Having seen so many cups of drinks left, we decided to play "guess the number"... The loser had to eat the cake n' drink a cup of fruit punch. However, as we went on, the stakes were raised. The no. of cups to drink n' the no. of caked to eat increased. After a few games, we bid farewell to the rest, den Jan, Sahf, n' me took the bus home. Hoem Sweet Home :):)
the ball bounced @ 8/27/2005 01:46:00 AM
Tuesday, August 23, 2005
It sucks when people dun understand. It sucks when they dun accomodate. It sucks when they condemn u. Life just sucks. Or so it seems. I nva really stepped in their shoes and thought for a moment. I nva tried to communicate with them. I nva tried to gather feedback and timely updates from them. I kept using the word "busy" as an excuse. But the truth is really so. It's my commitment, it's my drive, it's my passion. Perhaps that's the way I see things. On the surface, I may look like I have neglected, but inside, I nva really tried to shirk my responsibilities.
What's wrong with me? Can tok to her, I didn't. Could hav pushed my work aside for that one second n' said "Hi". But did I even try? Busy is a fact, but used too many times, it becomes an excuse, a portal, s hortcut, to escape from reality. It hurts when all I can do admist my being busy, is to just look at her n' not do anything. Gosh...I am so so so so so so sad... Sobz~Sobz~
Guess I've still got lots more to work on......
the ball bounced @ 8/23/2005 10:47:00 PM
Thursday, August 18, 2005
Juz came back from another TPSU meeting. A meeting to clear things up, a meeting to close the gaps. It's tough being a leader. It's especially tougher being a leader that everyone hates. It's never easy. Friends today, may very well end up being enemies tomorrow. But again, life is not a bed of roses, not all things will always fall in place.
Sub-Comm Trg Camp... I'm excited, I'm exhilerated, I'm exuberated!!! Can't believe it!! I'm an FA. I'm the FA for "her" group. "She" is one of the participants, and happens to be under my charge. How cool! How cool! Icebreaker games, break the ice......will I ever be able to break her icy cold walls of defense? My heart beats for no one but...
the ball bounced @ 8/18/2005 02:08:00 AM
Sunday, August 14, 2005
Happy Birthday to people hu r born on 13 August!!! I know of a few hu r born on this day.
Been closely observing my tagboard recently. The words of encouragement spur me to pursue my goals. Follow not the steps, but my heart. It's not about facing the rejection, but myself. Yeah, yeah......I know that, thanks anyway... But then again...it has happened so many times... I like her so much, but is this for real???~ How can I be so sure that it's for real???~ How do I know if this is not just another fictitious fairytale???~ I have missed the chance to begin a few months back...now tt the opportunity arises, am I gonna let it slip n' wait another few months???~
Romance aside, I hav other matters to attend to. TPSU. It has become part of my life, it flows in my blood, it thrives in the air that I breathe in, it has become an integrated portion of my soul. coming up next, sub-comm trg camp.
Good News! Good News! She's in sub-comm too. Juz hope tt she'll attend the training camp. But it's still up to me. The final decision lies with me. Am I gonna juggle both responsibilities and interests at the same time?? Or am I gonna juz sit dere, do nothing, pretend nothing n' carry on with my roles and responsibilities?? Will this take the toll on me?? Or will this be the flame that drives me to go the extra mile?? Only that day will tell. But, one thing is certain......if I were to do anything...time is not on my side...it is a luxury which I dun hav.
the ball bounced @ 8/14/2005 09:28:00 PM
Thursday, August 11, 2005
Many a times...my classmates ask me, why do I take TPSU so seriously?? I would tell them...it's not about the SEAL points, it's not about the people, it's not about fame and fortune...it's about the PASSION. Truth is...I fought so hard to get in...n' no way am I gonna sit thru' dere like a log n' let the whole FY pass by. No way hoze!~ I dun wanna disappoint the committee, I dun wanna disappoint Sahf, all the more I dun wanna disappoint myself. That's right, I can never face my real self if I do not put in as much effort as I promised to the committee right in the first meeting.
I would have never changed, if not for joinin TPSU last year as a sub-comm. I was known as ..., ..., ... People gave me the very "hurtful" look. It was very bad, very bad. But hey, if not for the Union...I wouldn't have changed into the better me. I juz wanna return the favour...cos' I know, n' I could see from the freshies n' sub-comm applicants, there are many who resemble the ex-yaoming. I could see the old me in them, I could feel the obstracizing n' outcasting that they are facin'. I see it as my job and duty to guide them, to nurture them, n' teach them.
At least I know I hve changed for the better, but not good enough. At least some poeple have changed their perception of me, cos' I smile more, n' I interact more than before. A plea for justice though, I am really, really a sincere, kind, n' friendly person... But I shy la......that's something that's stoppin me frm being more approachable.
the ball bounced @ 8/11/2005 11:29:00 PM
Monday, August 08, 2005
I dun think dere will ever be a step 2... It's juz not gonna happen... Impossible... Unless I am prepared to bear the rejection, insult, n' hurt tt's coming my way... Until then, things will be as it is... my efforts all went down the drain...flushed to the sewage...discharged to the sea... It's sad, discouraging, demoralizing, n' not motivating at all... But tt's juz life...It's the way of life... Not everything will go my way... Not forever...
But then again... if I can mentally and emotionally prepare myself for it... I am willing to take on this challenge... Even if it's gonna be a one-way no-return thinggie... I juz gonna work hard for it... I am hesitant...what can I do?? First thing first...change, chage, change,... gotta change the way I tok to pple, gotta change the way I potray myself in front of others...gotta rectify the way I interact with pple... People, people, people, it's all about people.
How can I ever be so sure that she is really who I want to be with? How can I be so sure of that? Only time will tell...
Advices please, my frens...~
the ball bounced @ 8/08/2005 08:29:00 PM
Friday, August 05, 2005
I'm no different from a Cirque De So Le performer, in that I have to juggle studies, school, projects, SU n' my personal life. I'm a very busy person. I have little time to blog. So, I'll just keep it short and simple......
3 Aug was a special day for me. This was my very first step. The planning was long, the preparation longer. However, the execution was short, not enough time for me to truly be myself. I can't believe my legs were trembling as soon as I got the job done!~ I mean.. I have felt my heartbeat thumping incredibly faster before.. but to have both legs trembling, this was the very first time actually!~ A new photo for my keepsake, hurray!~Ironically, the hints I needed for gift ideas was always right in front of me, so it's true that human tend to pay attention to what's ahead than what's actually smiling at them right in their faces.
Now that I have made my first move...how about step 2???~
Today was ESC AGM. Had a small chat with Terence n' Sahf after the refreshments. Discussed abt life, commitments n' jokes. Then while waiting at the bus stop, heard some words of advice from Sahf himself. "Eccentric, weird, strange", everyone's said the same thing to me before, n' I keep hearing it repetitively, coz' I juz won't change. Am I really such a status quo kinda person??~ "Formal introduction is not always the best way, perhaps u could try to just interrupt n' joke ard." Honesty, shows more sincerity, rather than trying to pretend to hook up with others. Frankly speaking, I feel it's more of the 3Hs--Honesty, Humility, Harmony.
Now that I have made my first move...how about step 2???~ How long must I wait before I am ready to commence on step 2???~ How much more sorrow, agony and silence must I endure before I get to know the answer???~
N.A.me --> Yip Yao Ming
A.Ge --> 21
B.D.ae --> 03/31/1985
S.C.H.ool --> Temasek Polytechnic Business Grad
H.O.B.B.ies --> mangas and anime
J.o.h.a.r.i.W.i.n.dow --> Yaoda
