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Sunday, March 13, 2005

I went for another NE Forum again. Again, I was one of the panellists. We were so under manpowered, luckily the situation was under our control. Once again, I did not have a chance to post a single question to the guest speaker.

Yesyerday's NE was abt Crime is a Choice. There was a short skit by an arts group followed by a speech by a representative of the Singapore Police Force. The Q & A was very enjoyable, as students posed alot of questions regarding crimes, offences and penalties. Mr De Silva tried to answer all of them to the best of the knowledge. The Q&A session was hyped-up when Mr. Jeffrey Seah posed one question to Mr. De Silva, after which, students continued walking to the mikes to clear their doubts. And because of the spontaneous speaker and the enthusiastic audience, once again, I didn't have my chance to ask question. Xavier, my fellow pannelist asked the first question, n' that was all the panellists did. Oh ya... not forgetting to give credits to Desiree for this was her first NE Forum n' oso her first time as an Emcee-cum-moderator.

This evening was the event I was looking most forward to, as it was our Stamford Primary School 6/1 Class Reunion BBQ Gathering. For the past 7-8 years, we havn't seen each other, wonder how they are doing in life. GREAT!!~ we had teachers, lawyers, doctors, frogman divers, officers n' many NS men. Dr. Kenneth is currently studying medical in NUS, where he will be re-enlisted in 7 years time after he finished his studies, housemanship and internship. Yinwei intends to pursue law in NUS. Alynna is currently first year in NIE n' she intends to teach mother tongue upon her graduation. They are all doing very well. I feel like such a loser. I want to achieve something in my life too!!~

We had steaks, chicken wings, marshmellows, hot dogs, bee hoon n' fish for our BBQ at ECP Pit 31. We had our class photo taken, a pity not all was present. The guys had all turned into stout young men. The girls well...... pretty young attractive females. Again, I feel so sore. What have I became in these 7-8 years? Nothing. I'm still the same old me. Boring, uninteresting, plain, dull, quiet, reserved, introvert, stiff, dumb, naive, childish. Somebody save me!!!~ This is a cry for help!!!~

Pauline brought her dog along. Doggie was so small and cute, n' her name was DuDu. She licked my thumb, wow. Never did I hav such close contact with a doggie before. I'm not good with kittens and doggies, not good with girls. The only thing I'm good with are guys. *sHuDDers*

Oh yes, the first girl I ever tried to jio was present yesterday too. My pri sch classmate. Haha, the recklessness and immaturity of me 5 years ago, come to think of it, was quite funny too.

I feel happy for them, having attained what they dreamt of, their ambitions. I feel sorry for myself, having achieved nothing. I'm such a failure.

They say only fools speak, n' wise men listen.
but, I'm juz trying to act cool,
a real fool I am.

the ball bounced @ 3/13/2005 11:39:00 AM